havent blogged in ages.
dont even know why im doing so now only.

i miss doing this.
miss reflecting.

maybe thats whats wrong with me.
i dont think, reflect.

i must have been crazy to think that'd you'd be able to take all my shit.
i know i was wrong yes.

maybe i never ever wanted to admit it, being stuck up me.
arrogant me.
self centered me.
immature me.
indifferent me.
just me.

imma gonna change everything.
everything about myself.

you dont deserve this from me.
nothing of it at all.
neither do i.
i dont do anything that warrants any sort of love and affection that you've been endlessly showering me with.

nothing of it at all.

but i really want to.
want to make you feel wanted and loved and needed again.
without the part that i take you for granted.

i want to make you feel like its all worth it.

your all i have.

ever.

dont leave me.

please.

i know i was wrong. i admit it.
should have listened to you right from the start.

now im just so afraid that its all a little too late.
maybe just that bit you know, too late.

you dont deserve this. im sorry.